This week,
This week has been something,
So much has changed in one week,
I am not a fan of change, especially when it is so unexpected,
It has swept me off my feet, caught me off guard,
Now, it has made me think, something that is not good for me,
Because once i start, I cannot stop,
I start thinking about everything,
Start questioning everything, another thing bad for me to do,
I start losing everything I've built up,
But it's ok, I can start over, this is nothing,
I've been through a lot worse,
That's the good thing about thinking,
You can think of things to start getting back to normal,
That's all i want, normality,
I k
This week,
This week has been something,
So much has changed in one week,
I am not a fan of change, especially when it is so unexpected,
It has swept me off my feet, caught me off guard,
Now, it has made me think, something that is not good for me,
Because once i start, I cannot stop,
I start thinking about everything,
Start questioning everything, another thing bad for me to do,
I start losing everything I've built up,
But it's ok, I can start over, this is nothing,
I've been through a lot worse,
That's the good thing about thinking,
You can think of things to start getting back to normal,
That's all i want, normality,
I k
You're making me think again,
Opening a door I slammed shut.
It's been a while since we talked,
And I don't know what to say.
Words were always hard to find,
And after what has gone down with us,
Is there any reconciling possible?
Is there a way to make this good again?
I want to be strong, and carry on,
But some things I can't forgive,
Faults in you, faults in me,
What we were, what we've come to be.
At the same time this old grudge
Just keeps weighing me down and
After all the time that's passed,
Maybe I can just let this go...
All the things that I said,
All the things that you knew.
It was too much to accept,
We both wa
The pressure is building up inside
In these broken dreams I would hide
But now reality is knocking on my door
And I can't hide in here anymore
Take a look, then turn away
Try to shout, but do not say
Tangled up in webs of treason
All the lies for a single reason
I have never felt so exposed
Vulnerable, and poorly composed
Like running away from a prison
Hope had died but now it's risen
The plastic box at the end of your lane
Contains a paper to drive you insane
The words upon it carefully written today
Mother father I have not gone astray
I'm speaking with actions to follow
So this heavy heart can be more hollow
Enough of st
Thank you
Thank you for opening my eyes that had been forced shout from suppressed memories and feelings
Thank you for ripping of the facade of a mask that hid me in the shadows of what I am
Thank you for coming and breaking down the walls that concealed what is lacking inside
But for all your efforts to get in and try set me free
Hidden deep within the room you tried so hard to achieve access to, there was nothing
Just an empty room is all that awaited you deep within the subconscious of my mind
These walls you tried so hard to break down
They where mealy a defense to hide the awful secret of nothingness
No one was ever supposed t
Remember how we used to be,
There was nothing we could not
Beat.
But strength was never really there.
We were crumbling under the surface.
I'm sorry for running,
I'm sorry for falling,
I'm sorry for trying to do this,
On my own.
I'm sorry for caving,
I'm sorry for burning,
I'm sorry for letting go but I,
I'm tired of shame.
Everyday was a new day,
Everytime we had so much
Time.
But time was never ours to have,
And innocence is long gone.
I'm sorry for tripping,
I'm sorry for calling,
I'm sorry for trying to move on
All alone.
I'm sorry for crying,
I'm sorry for screaming,
I'm sorry for feeling at all cuz I,
I'm tired
Current Residence: Walkerton/Waterloo, Ontario, Canada (Matters if I'm going to school or not) Favourite genre of music: Rock and Metal Operating System: Vista Favourite cartoon character: Beast Boy Personal Quote: Whatever you are be a good one.
Favourite Movies
Scott Pilgrim Vs. the World, Zombieland
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Three Days Grace, Disturbed, Avenged Sevenfold, etc.
It's what I do, So whenever you do it, update it here, cause I'm a creeper and like to know stuff lol, and if you dont do it by the 20th or so, i'll be up for reading week, so i can help you if need be, i dont exactly know how, but ya... congrats on what is about to go down. good luck.
I'll be posting an update on here after stuff goes down, thanks for your support. Any help is good help. I won't be in the home area for a long while, but if you're ever in my area, give me a shout and we can hang out. -hugs-